What am i thinking ?

Hi guys, i wanted to post sooner - what with the resolution taken (as usual without thinking much abt the effort estimates involved..as usual i am very gung-ho, optimistic in the start---haan haan kar lenge...ho jayega !....typical IT manager attitude...bechara will promise client the moon...and deliver a crater !!) to update the brand new blog regularly - so the resolution keeps playing on in the background as a schedule job - rebuking the mind / body that it is indeed lazy to post even a few things of all the numerous thoughts that it has grappled with.........gosh ! STOP !

Why, although i realise that everything that you do should always come from within (..this is my oft repeated advice to all and sundry for all the WHY problems that they face in life......ex. my mom- about her only son - who refuses to study - inspite of her zillionth lecture - WHY does he not study ?---My answer: because the feeling to study does not come from within).....i am a firm believer in the funda that for a person to truly do something regularly, he/she must enjoy doing it and only then the feeling will come from within.

As i am writing this, i also realise that probably i like thinking more than writing (?).....( of course...sochne ke liye koi kasht nahi karne padte :P....bas socho, dimaag to full time on rehta hain....but writing requires that your thoughts have some structure,...that they make some sense when put together,..that they prove to be useful...i know here again, u might say,...kya yaar, why should all things be done with some purpose ?...i remember asking my friend seshadri (whom i will refer to as seshu from now onwards..this was pure uselss information :))....why do all the actions that you do in your life have some purpose ?...why is it that even when i am reading i should read usefully...i read for the pure joy of reading...but probably not the right thing to say in a B-school interview.....seshu gave a philospohical ( according to him :P)....answer which stopped my WHY question in its tracks...but sadly guys, i don't remember his answer .....hehehe....poor registration !

Sorry readers, now i am seriously wondering the aim / objective of this post.....i can almost see your fist closing in....;).....itna waqt barbad kiya hamara...woh bhi confusion padhne ke liye !!! hahahaha....relax,...i am just doing some writing practice, understanding the way i write ( i am sure you will agree that i tend to write tangentially....go somewhere else while i am aiming for something)...getting in the flow..this is but net practice....and you unfortunately are here to witness that...don't worry, i will reward you - with my autograph !!